Well, I made it through one drama rehearsal. It wasn’t too bad…meaning no one was injured. There are only two more rehearsals and the show to get through on Friday.
I haven’t been too bad. I have not been moving towards panic but I have been perseverating on some worries. I keep getting worried that I am going to be sick to my stomach. It really bothers me because it is such an absurd thought. I know that throwing up is something that has to happen sometimes. I know that it is uncontrollable by me. And that it happens to people. I know that. I also know that I haven’t thrown up in all the years that the hubs has known me. So that makes me think that it is a totally unreasonable thought. And yet I can’t stop thinking about it! I keep trying to redirect my thoughts and redirect my actions. So far, I was successful today. I was heading in a bad way during my prep and I found some people I could talk to and I chatted with them and then I finished my progress reports. So I was successful.
I need some more ways to redirect my thinking and get over my negative thoughts. I will try to figure something out. Hopefully I will be successful with this. I am hopeful!